I stood with my back against the wall as the warm water ran down my face. As the sharp sprays left imprints on my skin, the dirt and grime washes away. Like a chance to begin again, and to start a new day. Each spray was a bad memory of what 2010 had brought my way.
Spray one….was the failure the last of my dream
Spray two… what the evil men, blowing hot steam
Spray three… was me not being true to myself
Spray four…was not looking to God for my help
The water caressed my skin as if to say…. Look not to the wrong that had been brought your way—you’ve made, you’ve done it. 2010 had more to say. As the soapy suds swirled around the drain….I remembered that 2010 was not all about pain.
God brought me to a place where I began to see who I am
2010 was the year that I took a stand
No one was able to divert me from my plans. 2010 was the year that I took my power back from your hands. The world would see me, not from the picture that you paint, but by my work and my deeds and the decisions I make.

****Good-bye 2010*****

This will be my resting spot for 2011.

2010 ends with a more cautious me. I can list the things that have made me walk slowing and pay more attention to who I am as a person but don’t want to end the year on a bad note.

There are plenty of good things to come out of 2010. I am a stronger, wiser person. I have stopped looking to others to validate who I am as a person. I end the year being true to myself and honoring the things about me that I love. If I don’t love myself, who else will love me?

Goals for this blog? To list my joys….


And a place to air my thoughts. No judgments, no faults. Just me.

Before I can be a friend to anyone,
I must first be a friend to me…
It feels good to start over… a clean slate… a new beginning.


What a wonderful weekend!

Just rest and relaxation for me and the family today. It turned out to be a wonderful, restful day.

Both Anna and daddy took two naps today!!! Blame it on the turkey!!

Baby son, made a Christmas video for me and hubby that almost brought me to tears. It was so thoughtful.

I am reading a new book…. Steven King’s Full Dark, No Stars. Both hubby and I are reading this at the same time. It is really fun having “book reviews” with him. I’ve discovered that he reads twice as fast as I do. I started 2 days ahead of him and he finished part I before me.

Finished reading Part I – 1922_ of Full Dark, No Stars: It was very interesting. What happened in that story, could likely happen in real life (if it hasn’t already). In every man, is there really a Conniving Man? He killed his wife for what? He thought that life would be better without her… but was it?


From Amazon.com

They call her wanton, a woman of wild and independent spirit. But Trista Windham knows her heart — and nothing can shatter her dreams.For love, in need, she surrenders her innocence beneath a radiant sky — and binds her soul forever to Blaze Davenant, a dark and handsome man of dangerous secrets… and startling secret passions. Across perilous waters and through the ravaging fires of the Civil War, Trista must pursue a rapture that, once tasted, can never be forgotten and endure suffering only the strongest of hearts can bear in the cause of a love that comes but once in a lifetime.

When reading the reviews of this book, it’s been called the worst romance book ever. So I had to pick it up and see what makes it the worst book ever. For the most part, I can not really depend on the reviews that I read. I just finished reading Just Breathe and it was nothing like the reviews said that it would be.

I hope to finish this book by the end of the week.


New Fitness Rotation
Rotation: After Burn Weeks 1-4:
Sunday: Rest
Monday: Strength Day 1
Tuesday: Cardio: HIIT (19 min)
Wednesday: Strength Day 2
Thursday: Cardio: HIIT (19 min)
Friday: Strength Day 1
Saturday: Cardio: HIIT (19 min)

I haven’t had the opportunity to post a workout schedule in a long while.
This rotation is from a program called After Burn. The cardio is light (57 mins) this week, however, it packs a punch because it’s 3 days of HiTT training. Three days of strength training involving circuit style exercises; squats, push ups, step-ups, seated rows, and Swiss ball crunches.

Your Story…..

I wonder what’s going on round me…
I wonder what others see..
There seems to be some drama..
I know has nothing to do with me!!
I’m caught up in others issues
I don’t know how to steer clear.
My mind is in shambles
and I’m drowning…. I fear.
I want to be supportive,
I want to show I care….
but darkness seems to follow me….
the craziness is to near…
my heart cannot take this.
I need to break free.
I miss who I am on the inside…
I miss what I like to be…
the more I’m surrounded by drama…
I more I lose the real me..

I love you…
I really do.
your friendship means the world to me…
but I can no longer listen….
because lately, I’ve been missing

..Back when I lived my story…
I loved to dance and sing,
life, to me, was beautiful… life was care-free.
I loved to sit and watch the sun rise
and read and read and read.
Back when….I smiled at what I saw when I looked into the mirror
back when…. I ran and sang to life
because there were no shadows.
life was not a fight.
your shadows are too much for me.

It makes me forget to sing,
I keep looking over my shoulders
and wondering what more your shadow
will bring.

I have to get back to when…
So….this must end.

In order to get back to me….
I can no longer worry..
I can no longer live

……your story.

Please….let me go… I go with love..



Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you’re stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don’t have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That’s what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

I believe Miracles just happen.

Impossible is not a word….