turn around

I look at you,
you look at me.
I see your soul…
but what do you see?
I want to hear it… but before you start,
I want to hear it from your heart.
not the words you say
not the lie that you live
when you look at me
I’m pushing you to give…
give me more of you
give me the truth
give me understanding
let it loose…
I look at you and see your soul
you look at me
and fear control
and losing all that that you hold.
can’t you see?
forget it, turn around
stop looking at me.

Perfecting the shorts

Photo on 7-28-13 at 8.44 AM

I’ve finally made a shorts pattern block that fits. This pair is from the 4th practice pattern block.  Now that I have the fit just the way that I like it, I can move on to making slacks.  I can also start adjusting the design features… create new style lines, add different details.

 

Picking up this “sewing habit” has brought great rewards as far as my mental health is concerned. I’ve rediscovered a passion that keeps my mind “busy” and helps me to take myself out of my “mind” and just “BE”.  Plus, I get a few pairs of shorts out of the deal.  In the end, it’s about loving the life that I live, and living the life that I love. Coming to that realization has brought me peace.

I don’t have to keep searching for “answers.”  I don’t have to keep “figuring others out”.  I can just BE.  If I don’t like something that I have the power to change, I CHANGE.  If I don’t have the power to change it, I just “Get By” until the situation changes…. and it will…. and take myself out of my own head.

I have plenty to be thankful for…. and I am thankful.  I can’t change who I am, nor do I want to change who I am.  I have learned to leave others alone to be who they are. And I protect myself from negative influences.  Then negative is always around, I just don’t have to entertain it in my life.

God is truly Good.

Fitness wise….. I still like working out.  I don’t try to kill myself and I realize that it really is about what you are eating…. For me.. I have to lay down the sugar otherwise I will not see big gains. If I don’t lay the sugar down, I don’t beat myself up for not loosing at the rate that I would like to loose.  I run for mental clarity and I lift to keep my bones strong. I would love to loose that 50lbs, but that will keeps getting into the way…… in the mean time, I live the life that I love, and I love the life that I live.

Photo on 7-6-13 at 8.59 AM

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First self-drafted blouse!! I seem to have a break through with flat pattern designing. This is my very first truly DIY blouse. From sketching the design, to cutting the pattern and finally, the construction of the blouse. It isn’t the prettiest, but I’m super proud of the effort that went into seeing it completed. It took me not more than 3 hours from start to finish. This one is the prototype, and I will make the needed adjustments then complete a new pattern with the adjustments.
Some of the needed adjustments:

The neck collar needs some stability

the bust area needs at least 1/2 inch increase

The length could have an additional 1 1/2 inches added.

It was truly rewarding to create something useful…… I have rediscovered a passion that had been sleeping for years!  Such fun!

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immortal is your legacy

my mortal ears don’t question thee

and I frequently listen

to the sounds and descriptions

music like religion

versus of the scriptures

I know just to be like that

be perfect in a way

I know Rastafari

well, I don’t know that lifestyle

but I know reggae

because of a Rastaman

I know Rastafari

well, I don’t know that lifestyle

but I know reggae

because of a Rastaman

immortal you are to me

my motto goes:

“love the life you live

live the life you love”

and I frequently listen to the sounds and descriptions

music like religion

versus of the scriptures

I know just to be like that

be perfect in a way

I know Rastafari

well, I don’t know that lifestyle

but I know reggae

because of a Rastaman

I know Rastafari

well, I don’t know that lifestyle

but I know reggae

because of a Rastaman

every song he sang

and every word he said

was never nothing short

of a prophecy

until thy kingdom come

until that last trumpet plays

His love will be the light

showing you the way

Vacation time

Photo on 7-2-13 at 6.43 PM

So, it’s that time again.  Time to relax and unwind.

The office life has been so hectic these last few months.  Seems that there are so many little projects on the table.  It’s hard to keep all the balls in the air.  So, now it’s time to drop all the balls for the next few weeks and sit back and relax.  All in all, this may be the most rewarding job that I’ve had in a long time.  It is really challenging but at the end of the day, I feel that I’ve accomplished something.

What’s on tap for the next few weeks?  Relaxing and doing absolutely  nothing!

fireworks

Happy 4th of July!!