Life is hard when you care too much.
Life is hard when you feel too much.
Others know how kind your heart is and they take advantage of that kindness.
Then sees that Kindness as weakness.
Giving youself to others who only want to take what they can get from you is heartbreaking.
The trick in life is to stop.. Stop feeing guilty for the blessings that you have. Stop feeling sorry for others that do not have.
Because in reality, they have. They would just rather just spend your money than spend their own.
It seems that in with world. People do not care if they are taking advantage of others as long as they get what they want.
Ask yourself, who is there for you? If you needed something from someone else, would they be there for you? More liklely than not, they have other things to do. You have concern for others, yet the others have no concern for you.
It’s a trip.
It is OK to say NO. It is OK to enjoy your blessings. It is OK to not care.
You are not a bad person if you put yourself first.
You deserve to be kind to yourself. You do not have to take others problems on as your own.
Believe me, they don’t care that much about you.
I’m sitting here thinking about inspiration
I’m sitting here wondering what’s next
I’m looking to you, expecting you to bring out my best.
You inspire my dedication, you inspire my motativation
without you I’m lacking direction.
Sometimes when you love yourself, you realize that holding on to old pain is pointless. The best thing to do is to let it all go once and for all. I’ve come to the fork in the road that demands that I let go of all the shit that I’ve been through in the past. It means that I have to take an honest look at the people in my life that has not been there for my best interest and to finally let them go. And I have. It might have taken years for me to get to the point that I realize that some people hang around not because they have any concern for me, but because they want to keep tabs on me. It makes them feel better about themselves to think that they may still have some small hold on me. Guess what? You have no hold on me. You didn’t then and you don’t now. The only difference it that I am aware of that fact now. It is okay that some people do not like me. I don’t like them. There is nothing to feel guilty about. What I should have said years ago was… Fuck you!! You had no right to treat me the way that you did. I always had the right to say Fuck you!! But because I was so sweet and so nice, I didn’t want to hurt your feelings. Even when you were tearing me down. Even when you participated in harassment. I was too nice to call you out. Well guess what……. Fuck you.
Letting go of old hurts is so refreshing. Saying Fuck you is better than years of therapy.
The storm is over
the sky is clear
Throughout the darkness
you’re still here.
When things were bad
and I was sad,
you grabbed my hand and pulled me through.
I would not have made it without you.
Your love, and commitment
reached out to me when I was distant.
You are my dream come true.
I’m still here, because of You.
My Music Man
Adulting is a funny thing really. Some think that it begins at a certain age…. you know, I’m 18 years old— therefore, I’m an adult. Some have really been “adulting” far from the “adulting” age. Say that older child who finds him/herself parenting a younger sibling while the real parent is out doing whatever.
The real sadness, is realizing at aged 50, that you haven’t been adulting at all. You have been surviving and that surviving looked a lot like adulting. But when you pull the skin back from the onion, you realized you were living on auto mode.
Stepping outside of yourself, outside of you issues, outside of your fears leaves a raw picture. It leads to open wounds, raw emotions, and fears you buried instead of facing. Once you are strong enough to face those hidden fears you have a true chance at really stating to “adult”. It’s were you are living according to your own values. Where you see the real you. Not the you that others tried to push off onto you. Not the fears that you developed from your past experiences. It is the You that you truly are. And you are OK with that You. You see your scars, your pains, your mistakes—– and you still love You.
Adulting begins when you see the real You and you love that You, and you start to take care of that You. Because, really, can anyone ever love You like you can?
Are you “Adulting” or are you on automatic?
Looking back I can see clearly
looking back I felt the love.
Looking forward, I dream of us seeking
that love we had before the storm.
You and I are not the norm.
Your touch upon my skin, so dearly
as if from angels up above.
Look at us!!
Even the angels are peaking
at our love.
We made it.
We all have shadows. How do you handle yours?
Me… I drown shadows by facing them. Feeling the emotion, then moving on.
But some shadows I hold on to…. There is a thin line between pain and pleasure. Although we tend to avoid the pain, think about this– what if we never get another chance to feel as deeply as we did when we were getting hurt? Is feeling better than not feeling?
Embrace your shadows…. I know that I do.
I sit across from you and wonder..
what are your thoughts..
if I told you what was on my mind
would you be lost
lost in a fantasy, destined to never be
lost in a reality that may not include me
or would you take a chance…..
and finally let it go…
reach out…for once…into an unknown
and discover a place where water flows,
where music fills the soul
where hanging on…brings more sensation….
Than letting go…
Where breathing in….. then breathing out..
Brings a place that turns your world inside out.
Where inside out feels right.
those waves lasts all night.
And the music turns into light.
You’ve been there…..right?
i hear the things you refuse to say
you hide behind your silence
but that does not hide it…
don’t hide the beautiful words
..you might as well try it….
Say what you have to say..
The words destined to fade away
But the feelings remains